I went into Anchorage to see Roy and get a few things done. I was so happy to be able to see him again because a plane ticket costs more than I'd like to pay, so we don't see each other often. The day after I arrived, I found out about my sisters baby, Lucy, not making it into this world. I was so upset by that, that the joy of seeing Roy had to be set aside for my sisters sake. She had just suffered a very great loss, and my heart broke for her. My mom headed out the next morning to visit my sister, and hopefully comfort her during this tragedy. Roy called me the morning she left and was so sweet, just listening to me, which was what I needed at the moment. He then said that my brother and I were invited to some friends' (Brunks) house for dinner, and he would pick us up that evening and take us over there. Our trip there was somewhat quiet because of the recent occurrences, but the conversations we had were spent mostly laughing or trying to figure out a way to include my brother, Cody, in them.
Friday, May 7, 2010
Yesterday my family and I were called at 4:00 in the morning by my sister who was due with her baby girl in a few days. She said that she had just had an ultrasound done, and the doctor could not find a heartbeat for the baby. When I heard the news, my heart dropped. There is nothing in the world like losing a child. I don't know this from personal experience, but I can't imagine how hard it must be. Hearing my little sister in such a heartbreaking situation is like something I can't describe. Seeing my parents with tears in their eyes, hurting for their daughter, is also indescribable. Trying to see what reasoning God has for taking this child, is so hard. It makes no sense, and yet, I know he has a plan and a reason. That little girl will never have to see the wickedness of the world.